I just read an article on prayer by J S Park and you’ll see below that I’ve reblogged it. However, I did want to add a few comments and have never reblogged anything before, so didn’t realize it would go directly onto my site.
His remark about surveys showing that pastors spend five minutes a week in prayer made me want to fall on my knees and pray for God’s children. Yes, for those pastors endeavoring to preach the Word of God, that they’ll have more meaningful communication with Him, but also because it convicts me of my own negligence in this matter. I need more meaningful communication with Him, too.
“Not the pastor, not the deacon, but it’s me, O Lord, standing in the need of prayer…”
I’ve been doing some soul-searching lately, wondering if there are things in my life that are displeasing to, or a distraction from, serving the Lord. A few days ago as I was paging through the latest Christianity Today, the title of an article struck me. Not just “Oh, this is interesting.” It hit the nail on the head. My head.
“Imprisoned by Choice” by writer Barry Cooper went clear through to my conscience and spoke me about the distractions of my life. My unwillingness to make decisions. My fear of making the wrong choice.
He talks about the false god of “open options,” one that promises such freedom but ties you in knots. Should I do this or do that? I just don’t know. If I commit to this then I won’t be free to go with that. We end up unwilling or unable to totally commit to anything because we need to keep our options open.
Two different non-Christian relatives informed me that they were with their current boyfriends “until someone better comes along.” Keeping their options open. Both of them have had a lot of “options” over the years.
My own options aren’t nearly so drastic, but they can fill my mind and bounce around up there, refusing to be caught and tacked down. I want to badly to write and share the inspirations I feel the Lord has given me. I also want so badly to play with my grandchildren, keep my house cleaner, get caught up with my sewing (for granddaughters and myself and piece some blanket tops for the Sewing Circle.) Each thing is important in its own right and this isn’t some new dilemma for me, but a growing one.
Now JSPark’s article on prayer touchings somewhat the same chord: I find myself distracted by shiny stuff, too. Or the computer screen. Or a dozen other things that should be done right now — and communion with my Heavenly Father gets pushed into “later, as soon as…”
As to God hearing and answering our prayers, my mind goes back to a time when my teenage daughter needed to get a handle on some issue. I didn’t feel I should sit her down and lecture; I rather prayed the Lord would show her the answers she needed to find.
For several days, whenever I thought about it I prayed for this. Later she told me how the Lord had showed her… And there was her answer.
So if you think of it, say a prayer for me as I try to deal with all this indecision. Your comments are welcome, too. 🙂